"goodbye. im off to join the circus."

im thinking about it. im trying to stay positive but im frustrated. frustrated i cant find a job. frustrated no one wants to hire me. frustrated with myself for not liking my nanny job. frustrated with myself for feeling this way. but its a new week and its going to be a good one.

confessions: being a nanny is hard. a lot harder than i thought it would be. right now both kids are taking a nap. i broke down today. yes, thats right i cried because no matter what i did the baby wouldnt stop crying. i felt helpless. it was hard. im grateful for my two nanny jobs. it keeps me busy and even though its hard it can be fun and rewarding. AND i only work four days a week.

betsy and i ran the run for ribbons 5 k this morning. i beat my time by a full minute! im thinking a 10k sometime this summer...

dear jimmer
i havent seen you play this year but i hear its awesome. i hope im able to catch the game today against gonzaga. nancys boyfriend wants me to marry you. how about it?

love,
your future wife?

• i really want it to be spring
• i applied to be the elementary librarian in rigby, id. i think it would be fun to be a librarian
• sometimes i feel lonely, but im scared of getting hurt
  
• i eat too many sweets
  
• i want to change my hair. i might cut my bangs. thoughts?
• i secretly like getting flowers
  
• i miss my little sister. we use to spend so many weekends together when i lived in utah
• i dream of owning a cupcake shop
• i really want to go to europe
• i like living in tri cities. im able to see my mom every week